Dahn Yoga in California

Lax

This has been a very enlightening year for me.   Last May I was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer.  Since then I have had 2 surgeries and 16 chemotherapy treatments.  Currently, I am receiving chemo treatments.

Before any surgery I knew I had to increase my immune system so I put together a plan.  I started acupuncture; took healings from my Dahn Yoga Center manager and received healings from center healers.   I felt so much love and energy.   At one time I remember feeling as though my body was lifted off the ground.   This was a point of  change for me.  My goal was to get my body, mind and spirit in the best possible condition before I started this journey.  This is a journey I am not walking by myself.  I have been so blessed with strong support and love from friends, family and the Dahn family.

I remember sitting in the doctor’s office while he listed all the things that could go wrong during surgery.  My friend who came with me took notes and yet all we thought about was how much weight I would lose as a result of the chemotherapy.    We really didn’t pay too much attention to any of the options other then the best case scenario.  My focus was to stay positive.  Turn around any information from the doctors to be positive in nature.   Unfortunately the surgery was not what I hoped for.  The doctors were unable to do anything but biopsy the tumors and close me up.    It was very upsetting.  All that I had practiced and trusted now had to be used to pull myself up and start all over again.

In the beginning, during the chemo treatments, the most difficult thing for me was to close my eyes.   I could not focus on anything.   My mind darted from here to there with nothing important. It was only when they gave me Benyadral that I could doze off and even then I would fight it.  It was almost as though I was afraid to close my eyes and let time go by.    Thoughts would come into my head.    I had so much of nothing to say.

My friend who came along with me would have me breathe along with her, she would whisper in my ear to visualize the chemotherapy as a white light going into my body to heal me.  This was when I began to use the tool of visualization.    There were so many times that ugly voice screams in my head “you have cancer, you are going to die”.   In my heart, in my soul  I knew that I was not going to die.   Yet, it is hard work to keep that voice at bay.  Everyday I use what I have learned from having been in a 12-step program and the body-mind healing principles of Dahn Yoga.

I feel as though this has been my first year in Dahn Yoga by Ilchi Lee. Even after 4 years, I feel like a beginner.   I finally took the Initial Awakening workshop.  It was so enlightening.  It’s only now that I understand and listen to my body and focus on my breath during training during daily.

I have given myself a daily routine: morning bowing, Energy Management Training and  DahnMuDo healing martial arts practice.  I practice what I learned at Power Brain Method training.  All of which has helped to change my energy.  All the training and help from loved ones has helped me stay in the moment, which is a 24-hour job.   Although there are people who come into my life with negative energy, I work hard to keep my positive thinking.  Visualization is a magnificent tool to use at this time.

I have always struggled with the fact that I did not have a vision or life purpose.  I now have the vision of taking care of myself and sharing my hope, strength and experience with others who are in the fight for their life with cancer.

I am so very grateful and blessed.